So if you follow me on Twitter or read my sidebar comments, you MIGHT have noticed I was a bit irked at my consumeristic bad luck as of late.
I bought a whole bunch of fruit to make smoothies for the shower, and the peaches turned out to be all brown and bland.
Then I went to Sam's and they left something out of my cart (which also reminded me that the week before, I had bought a big container of Greek Sea Salt at The Fish Market at left it on the table).
Then I got a $10 coupon in the mail that I could have used the day before. To a store I hardly ever go to. And it stated on the coupon that it could not be used for prior purchases.
Being that I am an accountant and very money conscious, this kind of thing eats me up. It's a scary view into my mind, but if you saw it, you would see a huge list of debits and credits.
Wins and losses.
So, to assuage my self-loathing for not being a good shopper, I decided to balance it against the unusual amount of things that I have won on blogs lately, which is especially odd since I don't enter that many contests anymore. But the few I HAVE entered, I've won.
I won this amazing personalized journal and handmade bookmark from Amy at Ordinarily Extraordinary,
I won three big bags of Pistachios from Robin at Pensieve,(which, by the way, I've never had Pistachios before, but I do believe I am a Pistachio lover now. Oh my goodness they're so good!! And Ali loves them too.)
(But one time I accidentally sat on one, so now every time I get the bag of Pistachios out, Ali says, "Mommy sat on her nuts".)
Moving on, I won a $15 Amazon gift certificate from Esme's Mommy at Mozi Esme, which I used to buy Ali her map placemats:
And I won a $20 gift certificate for bows at Ladybug Limited via 5 Minute for Mom's Ultimate Blog Party, which I used to buy these clips (in pairs, although the picture only shows one each) for Ali:
So, just in case you weren't already scared enough by the obsessively analytical way my mind works,
Sorry Peaches: $9
Chris' Deodorant at Sam's: $7
Coupon a day late: $10
Greek Salt: $4
Total Losses: $30
Amy's Gorgeous work: $30 (estimated)
Amazon GC: $15
Hairbow GC: $20
Total Wins: $95.. and that doesn't even count the $100 that I won in Chris' office's basketball pool last week.
Even after I did this reconciliation, I still felt wronged. I reported the mixup to Sam's and they wouldn't fix it. Then I really felt wronged. I know - pitiful, right?
It's crazy how hung up I am on fairness sometimes.
Then, Tuesday morning, I read this verse, and it cut me to the core:
When they hurled their insults at him, he did not retaliate; when he suffered, he made no threats. Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly. - 1 Peter 2:23Jesus endured the most incomprehensibly ultimate injustice. A perfect man not only punished for all our sins, but ridiculed and spit on and beaten by people who didn't know they were being "used" in an ultimate plan - they just flat-out hated Jesus, who SO didn't deserve their malice.
I love the last phrase. When he was treated unfairly, He entrusted Himself to Him who judges justly.
I don't have to attempt to fight for justice for myself. I don't even have to attempt to balance it out with good fortune. God sees all and knows how everything fits together. I can rest in that justice, knowing that He is a just judge.